IM Only Human

I know  that Im not perfect and I dont plan to be I only want to forfill my heavenly destiney.  I know that God made but still I dont know why? but the flesh that lives inside me makes me ditier than a fly. I know that Jesus loves me and he does all that he can but yet instill i let him down but he continues to hold my hands. Sometimes this gets so confuessing and my mind get all shook up  and thats the time that I grab your book so that I can look it up. Father please be patient with me and help me to do my best, Its because of you that Im here at all and you dont make no mess. Jesus Ill take iit one day at a time cause thats, really all thats left because when you call me home that will determain my test. Maybe a A or maybe a B I hope its not a F, Cause then I know I fail for sure and Hell wont let me rest.