im scared

im going to die

i hate that thought

but it's true

i will die

the fear that chokes me

when this thought pops into my head

i have to shake it away even now

i think of my parents

and my grandparents

and even my siblings

i don't want to leave them

i don't want them to leave me

but most importantly

i want to feel

i don't want to be a dead emotionless peice of mass

i want emotions

no matter how much they can hurt

i want to feel!!

im scared of not having memories

of not having words

not feeling

not moving

it's no fair

it scares me

how much time I have left

even in my youth it seems small

my parents are 35

even that's a big number

theyre almost half way through life

and I'm almost a courter to death

and I'm still afraid of that darkness

dont leave me with the darkness

dont leave me with the dead

im scared