I'm Sorry

You tell me you love me

you say that your there for me

you say that you will help me succeed no matter what

you tell me that you will help me

and i believe you

but

when you turn your head to look at me

in the back of dad's old toyota

and when i meet your eyes

you scream

" I hate you."

with a burning anger

it's then that i start to keep track

the "don't talk backs"

the "why is everything so difficult with you"

the "why arent you more like your friends"

the "you're crying over nothing"

the "why do you act like such a child"

the dissaproving looks

the anger barely suppressed in you as i cry

the sadness i constantly feel

and the pressure on my shoulders that i can never rid myself of

because i want you to be happy

and proud of me

so

im sorry

if my faith in you

is dwindling

and im sorry

if im not good enough

and im

sorry

so maybe

you'd like it

if i just shut up