Im Sorry

when i look back on it i regret when i told you no i felt like i didn't know what to say, im sorry my actions let you go. i didn't know which path to choose. i prayed to God to lead the way. i didn't know how fast it would come; until questions were brought to me that day. i had no idea what to possibly say, i look back at the what could be. Im not proud of the choices i made, I was looking everywherte but right in front of me. When my mind was clear it seemed like you wanted nothing to do with me. I can't blame you for feeling that way, because i blew a great opportunity. At this point theres not much to say i wish i was smarter from the start. My mind was playing tricks on me. My feelings should have been from my heart. life really is learning from your mistakes. we can't dwell on what we missed out on. we have to look forward and question ourselves is it gone?