I'm sorry you ended up like me

I'm here to apologize Not for something I did, but for what the universe did to your mind Right now, you’re young, right now you don't understand How much the world is blind To the pain you must withstand I get it Your mind says you must do it like this or you die And that people are always there just to judge Everyone else treats you like you’re just broken Or like you’re holding a grudge I know how much it hurts Sitting there, words unable to come out All the other kids are talking, laughing You just want to cry “You know you’re allowed to talk” someone blurts You just want them to shut up Nobody ever talks to you They think you’re messed up And you know you’re different from them And that you’ll never change And they don't want to get near you And then you get forced to work with them Then they act like the tortured ones They always treat you like it's a choice When you physically can't talk to them Always complain about petty small things When you can barely make it through this life you’ve been forced to live I want to say things will get better, but I know that's not always the case I don't want things to get better for me; I want them better for all of us I want this entire cycle being erased So, in ten years you won't be like me Watching the others be ok without you Feeing alone Wanting death Then feeling guilt seeing those like you suffer too