I'm Tired

I’m tired.

Tired of the constancy.

The constancy of judgment.

Tired of hiding.

Hiding who I really am.

Tired of trying to stay strong.

I’m tired.

Tired of pretending.

Pretending to be happy when all I want to do is cry.

Tired of not being able to let go.

Let go of all the pain and emotions that consume me.

Tired of feeling worthless.

I’m tired.

Tired of being put down.

Put down by the people I felt closest to.

Tired of dreaming.

Dreaming of a life I will never have.

Tired of not being good enough.

I’m tired.

Tired of crying.

Crying alone so nobody can hear.

Tired of the fear.

The fear of being judged, hurt, and alone.

Tired of failing.

I’m tired.

Tired of feeling stuck.

Stuck like a tree in the ground unable to freely move.

Tired of feeling forgotten.

So forgotten that nobody would notice if I was gone.

Tired of feeling insecure.

I’m tired.

Tired of holding on.

Tired of being tired.

Tired of being me.