Indecisive

I want to be loved, 

I want to be adored,

I want to be kissed,

I want to be hugged,

I want to be cared for,

I want to fall in love

I admire couples,

I admire the beauty 

of two people becoming whole

But?

Would he love me?

Would I be enough?

I fear giving in,

I fear falling inlove again,

I love too hard and that always left me paralyzed 

What if he gets tired of me?

Am I really worth his time?

Does he love me truly

or am I distraction

from all this pain of this new land?

Do we have  a future?

Will he cheat?

Will we get married ?

Am I the only one?

So should I love or 

not Love?

Why do we have feelings like this ?

I dont know what I want really?

I cant decide

But

I want to be loved !

I want to be kissed!

I want to be loved !