Indescribable

I feel so embarrassed And oh so much shame From his laughter And this game I wish to tear down the mountains I want to lay down and cry I want to curl into a ball As time slips by I want my heart to stop beating Stop it’s horrible rage I want to stop breathing Until time agrees to change Its path to now Where my face is red But back then Where I had my head Not when I lost my mind Oh world…if you would be so kind Lend me your death Or a heart that will hear Or just get me away Before I decide to permanently disappear