The Inevitable

So, then, how do we…

How do we move on? 

Is there some point in time I was supposed to label this a mistake?

This whole thing, this whole history?

Was it doomed before it began?

I guess it was.

So, what? We just, we let it - go?

Is that what I am supposed to do?

Oh, oh boy.

I should’ve known it was too good to last. 

Eventually you would see me. 

Eventually your pure eyes would see my filth

Eventually I would wake up-

Car gone, fines everywhere,

House destroyed, friends in flames,

And my heart alone. 

Eventually you’d learn.

And I can’t blame you. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to…

You just said to trust you, you said to believe

I tried so hard for so long and

And

But

And

And when it

When you were gone.  .  .   .   .

It hurt.

It’s been a while-

A long while,

It’s been so long since we spoke.

And I can already feel your unease. .

Well,

Maybe it’s just mine. Heh.

I know, I know I’m different,

I mean,

Look at me, I’m a little worse for wear.

I have these, 

this

these new lives. This whole world!

Me.

Of course, it’s unexplored-

And I’ve just been procrastinating.

And yeah my belt is a little tighter…

But hey! It’s so, 

so,

so terrifying, to see you again.

You know the last time I saw you, you were walking to a guys’ place?

I knew who it was.

not that it matters, I’m just the crazy one.

Yoo-hoo.

but, it mattered to me.

And…

It hit me then, what I’ve been trying to drown out ever since.

I want it to be you.

Sorry.