Insanity

by Schmidty22

June 8, 2022

If you ever struggled with your mental health

Pissed off you didn’t get blesssed with that generational wealth

Dad walked out when you was still a baby. Raised by a

single mom with no income. But she loved you maybe

don’t know where your next meal will come from.

She sold the food stamps, Different guys coming by all hours of the night

So you saw first hand how ttrifling women be. So when you grow older

there is no trust to be had. Now you out acting like your

Fuckin dad.? Getting turnt every night but can never could feel right

Then you had to endure the affliction of your addiction

memories of your past that are missing

Wishing god was listening, but he isn’t

In a room full of people but always alone

Reflecting back on how life’s is going

Owing these debt collectors and interest

keeps growing Knowing something has to change

or life will be flipped upside down rearranged

Scrounging loose change in exchange

For that sauce so the shakes go away

Your nit okay not a day goes by You don’t cry

cause your living a lie

You wanna die just say goodbye

you look up in

the sky

close your eyes and fly high. Laws of physics still apply.

don’t get me wrong for so long stayed strong

and it’s your own doing the choice you been choosing

the reason this battle your loosing

is what has been looting

No more disputing or excusing the boozing

That was you own choosing When you was the

one abusing Consuming polluting my body and mind

not goinlie I don’t question why I won’t deny in life

you either win or lose no such thing as a tie

When you don’t abide by the rules acting like

thebrules don’t apply when you don’t comply

When you buy or get high on your own supply

It always comes crashing down no matter how hard

you try. Consequecnes cone with getting high

Then go and drown your pain and sorrow praying for a

better tommorow

Scared of what’s about follow

so you swallow another pill

then a xanas bar to chill then fill

your glass full of whatever alcohol is near

whiskey or beer you don’t care. The dispair

you’ll do anything to change how you feel

. It’s how you cope how you heal, unreal,

knowing the consequences but But still

take whatever will change thefway you feel

that’s insanity is your free will need another pill

so now you gotta steal

. Feels like this pain will never heal

This life is not ideal. Hate the person

you see when you look in the mirror

drop to your knees in prayer praying

the end is near, as you shed a tear p

Knowing you need to quit,

been down this road before

, but slipped, tripped ufell face down

And landed back in hell,

Yea slipped tripped fell face down

In this life of hell

It's Insanity it's a tradgedyv

To live in this reality

it’s a tragedy and the insanity

so sad to see , living in a fantasy

Oh the agony just want o live happily

Be stable financially not angrily unhappily everything changed

so drastically practicallya walking catastrophe The insanity

the pain is caused the family problems it’s caused financially Want to use this gravity jump

off this balcony solving problems rapidly yea a fucked up strategy

might be better off in another galaxy it’s insanity so

sad to seeWondering how this could be ,

is this your destiny

A deputy charging you with a felony

lifetime full of therapy

listen carefully. Many men where you were mentally

they were able to change the way successfully

they had to do it necessarily somebody voluntarily

put their lives changed tremendously.

If you keep going carelessly recklessly drinking heavily

things will get so terribly especially when you’re

chemically medically dependent constantly full of resentment

On your way to another indictment in being sober a requirement

feel like you’re living under a tyrant under in solitary confinment

Because you didn’t understand the assignment

Back to this insanity there’s no amnesty is a tragedy

No laughing matter no teeth To many cavities

and a disease in your kidneys live in like gypsies

Won’t live to see your fifties

I get it addiction is hell you’re not the only one that’s fell

don’t dwell on the past move forward

Chillax I you can get back on the road tracks

Quit Chase and all them sacks. So wasting your money on snacks

instead of 12 packs ask dax . These are facts. Your mind

needs sonething it lacks

Surrender to the fact your powerless and your higher

Power has your back. Take it day by day it will be ok

Given suggestions listen to what they say. One day

It may be the difference of staying sober or another relapse

ack to the insanity hell will be your reality

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