Insecurity

I was never sure if it was love or if it was severe lust.

I would have gave this man anything, but it was myself that I couldn't Trust.

But I knew there was something different. Something completely distinctive.

I prayed he wouldn't turn out to be manipulative or vindictive.

I prayed he wouldn't take the truth and twisted. I crave his presence. He's forever missed. A piece of me is now missing.

All the time I would reevaluate my emotions.

I self examined myself to ensure that this wasn't vain , and empty fixation, the thrill of every situation, his brown eyes, and the temptation.

His intelligence was uncomfortable.

We clicked instantly. I was able to lay down my mind to rest my troubles.

He never meant any harm or pain infliction, but his love was terrible. I couldn't believe that it was real. I let this man's love shake me. It was because in myself, I wasn't steady.

If I could relive every moment of Summer's 2017, I will live it better.

The most ironic scheme was that I met the right man. It was just the wrong time for us to be, I simply wasn't ready. Often times I wonder if he was having sent so that I would one day complete him as he would for me.