Inside Versus Outside

In: Aggressive, burning, thunderous. Out: Calm, peaceful, quiet. In: Annoyed, irritated, live. Out: Kind, caring, dead. Why do I have to go through this? This, this is just meaningless. I tell you, I feel, pure agony! I tell you, its one huge jeopardy... Out: Smiling, joyful, laughter. In: Weeping, sorrow, regret. Out: Cheerful, loving, positive. In: Distraught, hatred, negative. You need not know, you shall panic! For all I am, is one lunatic. But no, I'm not, I'm just suffering. I need your help, inside I'm dying! In: Hurt, sensitive, lonely. Out: Alright, fine, fearless. In: Lost, confused, all-time-afraid. Out: Confident, tough, courageous. I'm in pain, a type you shan't see. For all you see, is a jolly me! But wait, I'm sick of this feeling, I see your jaw drop opening.. . Out: - In:- Out:- In:- Please, may I tell you of my past? If I say so, you mustn't be aghast! No. I can't. Shan't reveal the secret... If I tell you, you won't ever forget it. In-weeping. Out-leaping. In-Crying. Out-Smiling. I can't say. Speak 'bout my history. For you, shall it all be one big mystery. I seem angry, a struck of lightning. Inside I am ceaselessly, eternally fighting. Out- Come, hold it, just a few more yards In- No, no more, no more words. Out- be strong, come on, you can survive. In- No, I can't. I shall not revive. I need to forget, forget that past. I must hurl it, into the fire fast. Let it burn, burn away like coal. Just so that, it won't burden my soul. I must turn the page, and move on in my life. But HOW? Heart: I need help, ever so badly. Mind: No you don't, not at all likely. Heart: I need it though, or I shall die... Mind: No, stop it, don't tell a lie... But stop. Hear me out... The truth is true, even if no-one believes it. A lie is false, even if everyone believes it. Does that make sense? Have YOU ever seen the tears hidden in my smile? Have YOU ever walked for a friend an extra mile? Have YOU ever trusted me as I have done for you? Have YOU ever seen my unmistakable clue? I bet you NO. NOT one. You have NEVER seen it. I call it, the three N's. N is my enemy. N M E. N ain't a cutie. Q T. I don't like NO, NOT, NEVER. To me, it's not very clever. It seems as though, it won't ever. Ever, ever, ever, ever. That is FOUR ever's. Which means, Forever... FOREVER, my secret is hidden. FOREVER, I shan't say, for its forbidden. FOREVER, I remain, remain in this state. FOREVER, on my soul, is it a weight. Here I go, ranting on and on and on. All the way from night until dawn. But hey, you have got to listen. For between myself, is an everlasting division! Please, just let me be. I need to be, lon-e-ly. Maybe even, e-tern-ally. Please, just let me... BE WHO I AM. You can't CHANGE me. You can't MAKE me. You can't FORCE me. You can't PREVENT me. I am me. Just let me be. Please, I don't need help. The crying was just a yelp... If I love me, Then I know I'm free. I ain't a disguise. You gotta open those eyes. I ain't a mystery, I insist that you see... ME! And now, I hope that you are happy... :'-(