Intense feeling of distress

As I write this , My heart bleeds into tears , Which runs through my fears , Into my soul deep , Where it all roars and weep , I feel this pain in my heart , Which tears my feeble heart apart , It's a unbearable pain , Which let's u wander in the dark side of your brain , Uncontrollable tears running down without permission , Stopping and controlling them is the greatest mission , Wish I was a bud which never bloomed , In this world which is always gloomed ,