Internal Conflict

It would be so easy So simple To just end it all And complex at the same time I would want to say so many goodbyes But no one try to stop me I just want to be finished To be done I'm so sick of this life There's nothing left for me here Care, no one would I've made too many people angry Caused too much grief Maybe if I'm gone It'll give them some relief No one knows what I'm thinking They don't have the slightest idea how I feel I doubt they would care But these thoughts of mine are real They don't know that I've considered it Maybe I'll actually go through But before I make my decision I'd like to spend one more day with you You are the brightest light In the hell I'm dealing with You are the only reason I couldn't do it The only one who saves me from this You actually care, when no one else does It may break your heart to see me go And I made you a promise, you know That I would never hurt you Though it would hurt me most A promise is a promise I couldn't do this to you So tonight I'll just sleep