Internal Conflict

I hesitate.

Replaying your comment in my head.

Say something.

Say anything.

Speak up.

Speak OUT.

But enough though I want to,

I don't say anything.

I don't.

Not a sound exits my lips.

I want to speak.

But I don't want to argue.

Or fight.

Or get in trouble.

Even though I want to.

I don't say anything.

Another comment.

Another dilemma.

Another internal conflict.

Don't say that.

Don't say this.

Don't say anything.

Even though I want to,

I don't say anything.

If I never speak,

I will never encounter conflicts.

If I ever speak,

I will never have the upper hand.

Even though I want to,

I don't say anything.

I can control my voice,

But I say something.

And I never I made a mistake.

Once I have spoken,

They will never see me the same again.

Even though I wanted to,

I shouldn't have said anything.