Internal Fight
I look in the mirror, I’m silent in my agony.
I visualize my hair being ripped out from my scalp.
My fingernails digging into my hands.
For a moment, I’d almost convince myself that I couldn’t do it.
I couldn’t feel my legs, my hands, or my environment.
Almost as if I was floating towards the surface of the ocean.
Nearly able to reach and grasp the air that lied above me.
Until one day, I turned it around.
I surrendered and said, simply, “I’ve had enough.”
I began to do things differently, by viewing life differently.
I started laughing more, and enjoying the fruit of life.
The sun, the moon, everything in between.
I was no longer a prisoner in my own body.