Irrelevant

I have a block And it's....not like any other block It's heavier than a rock More investable than a stock And like a boat at a dock I am ready....to move forward Drift at sea like buoy Ooooh wee, I'm ready Because this block.....it is not steady Nor is it stationary It requests my attention like a probationary period As incomplete as a sentence without a……., I am What I am is something unlike the old me I'll give you all my soul And I'll take whatever's left of me But Lord knows the rest of me is nothing without you So I'll give you all my faith and never again doubt you See this is not about you, nor me It's about us, we...... Are like this, endless, our hearts can't resist And my best is not all I've got so go ahead and consume me I'm your desolate, vacant lot Placing the emptiness I got in a box I never bought And kick it down the street to an old school beat Warming my heart like when lovers first meet When lovers first seek They don't seek each other, they....view another But perpetually long for the other Who would smother them with passion Reach their satisfaction And give them the denominator of their insufficient fraction "An equivalent exchange" is what you've always said "Pretend as if you know nothing" is embedded in my head And the discrepancies in what I've read have leaded me to believe Generosity is contingent upon what you receive But I've learned when you give unconditionally, the connection will never leave The affinity will never peak It will last till infinity Whenever that will be is unbeknownst to me But I definitely know together We are the greatest We combine to form 100% And like a broken line I'm bent On making every second you live in this house Worth the rent But, all of this is irrelevant I am not me anymore I am not what I’ve lead others to believe My body cannot physically bear the scars you’ve conceived I tried to be your everything Thought of you more than me But I’ve slowly started to realize that we cannot be Together, forever You were here for a season Why you put your hands on me Truthfully, I don’t know the reason You were my main concern Above all, even my safety I forgot about my own life My health was of no concern to me But I cannot continue being with you I love you but I will not apologize You manipulated and violated me And feed me your vicious lies But I am stronger for leaving you And happier in spirit I wrote this poem for you Because you’d probably never hear it What I am, is nothing like the old me I gave you all my soul And this is what is left of me