Isolate Me

Sometimes, I do imagine what the world could be:

so much kinder, unexpected, and not a shadow

of grey to dissuade my steps and me.

But now, in this world I must confine.

I wonder about this place,

dream more than I can ever dream,

and haven’t prayed. I want to.

There’s so much pain, 

death,

grey.

It’s more beyond my mind, this mentality inside,

and I want to share what’s inside my head.

There’s peace, happiness, and bliss for days.

And, it seems I can’t escape this reality.

The nightmares have seemed

to escape instead from this place,

once my head. I feel it.

There’s so much worry,

loss,

sad.

Sometimes is no longer a factor for me, because:

I do now long for spring, when there’s life

and green that births new lives, air, sanity. It’s

a long awaited, captivated dream. 

I find myself wanting 

so many things I gave up on,

or didn’t want before. 

There’s so much silence

again,

then,

now.

Sometimes I read, write, compose something bigger

than me, and what I can be. I imagine all these

fantasies, and draw, and paint to know me. 

'Cuz now I know this silence in place.

It isn’t just me facing

these nightmares, twisted reality.

There are no words

to speak,

say,

be.

Sometimes, the sun shines behind the curtain that

drapes across my bedroom window, and shines

beyond the sky filled with grey. It’s beauty

and warmth is something hoped for.

Sleep evades me more with

each passing day that I 

have to face uncertainty.  

For just once, please,

why is 

this?

Me?

Sometimes, can I not have more than those?

There are no people on the streets,

no new strangers to meet, and everything

is gone in the grocery stores. 

School isn’t what it’s 

supposed to be. None

of this is. Reality?

There are no more dreams,

stories,

steps,

days.

Sometimes, I want to wake up and find and

hear those unspoken words from the many,

their histories, dreams, and stories. Anything.

But, now, I am safeguarded by a barricade.

If steps could carry me

across night and day,

I’d escape.

There would be no more

death and

virus.