Is it all that bad

All I wanted to do was talk to you... that's all... I would be okay if you just said... Oh I am sorry and explained to me why you got mad... I am not even supposed to know why you are upset and the fact that I know why you were upset makes me mad... why it does is how I found out... I found out because my best friend was texting you and tells me you were stressed had a rough day and didn't mean to yell at me or fight with me... but yet... that's not what makes me mad... I didn't get mad when you yelled I didn't get mad when you called me stuff what got me mad is the fact that I gave you so many opportunities to apologize and explain it yet you still haven't explained yourself you still haven't said sorry and you haven't even tried... you tell my friend you miss me you tell her you want to talk to me you tell her it was by accident and you didnt mean to... If you miss me there is a big chance that I miss you... If you want to talk to me all you got to do is reach out... and if it was by accident you apologize and I listen I don't enjoy to get mad it just doesn't feel right but when I do its hard not to let it go... all I wanted was to talk that's it all I want from you now is to say sorry and explain that's it that's all you got to do and everything should be alright but yet it won't be because you will get stressed again... and no matter what I try to do you wont talk to me about it so I cant help I would like to help and I am here to listen if needed but yet I cant be willing to listen if your not willing to talk...