It all fades to grey

Like thorns in my head the pressure is excruciating. I never knew that this would be the cause of loving you. I can't act happy anymore. The loneliness and darkness is laughing at me while I watch my walls. Theres nothing that can replace you.

This lonliness is a double edged sword that is peircing my heart. I can't take it anymore. I admit. I need you. I know that you're trying to do better, but we dont talk anymore.

I act like I dont care. I'm slowly trying to close my heart to where you cant read me. You know me to well though. The good memories are fading into grey. All I have left is love. I feel guilty, because most of it is not for you.

Like an ant I stay busy. Only to distract myself from the pain that you cause. It all fades to grey.