It Hurts

I'm in so much pain!

My brain is on fire and my soul is in shambles

I can not see and my body is numb

How can I escape this burning Hell

When my heart is shattered 

And my mind is dumb?

My friends are leaving, the few that i made

They don't see the black hole sucking me slowly inside

No, they just think I'm ignoring them that I'm a bad friend

Can't they see how much pain I'm in?

I'm drowning in fear

I was hit with a bolt of anxiety

My hands are shaking I can't breathe or function

I'm asking I'm begging anybody please!

Make it stop!

Someone help me I'm down on my knees!

Why doesn't anyone see the pain that I'm in, how much it hurts!

I'm crying and screaming and thrashing about!

I'm throwing up and rolling on the ground

Does no one see this?

Oh wait

Of course they don't

Because all of that is in my mind

Death is my only option now

It's the only thing to free me from this suffering

I tie a nouse and right a note

And look through the hole that is my escape

It is so beautiful

But for some reason I stop

I think it might be hope

Hope for the future as I set down my rope

The pain is subsiding

But it is still there

I ignore it as I walk downstairs.

My family is waiting

We all watch TV

I feel their love calming the screaming inside of me