It Makes Me Sick

I just don't get why I still feel the same way I ask myself everyday why am I opening myself up to get hurt over and over again? It makes me sick, and I want to vomit when I admit that I still love you and I know somewhere inside you love me too. I don't know why, but it feels safe to be around you. NO STUPID GIRL JUST STOP! Before you get overwhelmed, Combust... and 'POP' I can't let you go and hurt yourself this way! It would be so much easier if you hate me and stay away so then I have no choice and my feelings will fade away. It makes me sick I want to vomit when I admit I still love you.