Its back

Damn it they're back

those voices that criticize me day and night

the music that we shared

is constantly on my mind

The voices they say--

why did you leave me?

why did you change your mind?

these voices tell me its my fault

and bring up the past that I thought i left behind

I feel so nasty and disgusted

I say why did you do that, Why did you not

The words the lyrics the memorises i wish I forgot

these voices speeking to me keep me up all night 

these things have not left my mind since that moment i read what was on your mind 

I remember those days you said you loved me and squeezed me tight

I remember the heart ache you gave me 3 times

I hoped one day you'd realized you want me back but now

somethings come up and i know its won't happen, you stabbed me in the back

I will love you even as a friend cause that just who i am. i'm happy for you

even though i'm not glad that it had to end and it hurts me inside cause --

Damnit the voices won't stop

I put my hads around my ears when i know its in my mind

But you don't understand and you'll never see cause i can't tell you cause i'll hide

I bring my knees up to my chest and grab my hair and grab my kneck

i wipe the tears from my eyes and sit there while the water rushes from my head 

down to my back as it flows it reminds me how you use to couress my hips and back

Shut up voices! I say, i thought you went away!

Voices say they are back you disgusting creep 

and i try to scrap the meldew from the stintch with the soap 

but it still seems to stick to me

But today as i stand here today I wear a mask

today i'm happy, today i forget, today I think of moving on and living my life that 

I still want to have

the name of yours don't come to mind until that one moment i pause...

...Damnit its back.