It's Complicated

It’s complicated

Because I’m older now

And life has a way of showing me how even though we fall down, but we get up guilty or not

There are the after effects…peaches and cream, they are not

It’s complicated

Life has a way of hitting you back to back to back

Trust me, I know what it feels like to be attacked

I know what it’s like to struggle to clean out the skeletons in the closet…how in the world did they get there in the first place?

I know what it’s like to try to hide things from yourself because just you alone, without anyone knowing are embarrassed

It’s complicated

I know what it’s like to feel like you’re in a hurricane and if that doesn’t cause some strain…

That hurricane that comes when life has handed you a situation where your thoughts, your emotions, and your expectations collide head-on causing massive confusion

An inconvenient intrusion…I didn’t ask for this

I could elucidate it

But it would be hard to fully comprehend it

You’d just have to see it

Or better yet, just take my word and believe me when I say it’s complicated

I blessed

But it’s complicated

I’m thankful

But’s complicated

I’m spiritual

But it’s complicated

I go to church

But it’s complicated

I pay my tithes…Lord I pay my tithes

But it’s still complicated

I’m delivered, saved, set free

But it’s complicated

I’m still moving forward

But it’s complicated

And to think all this is orchestrated

So complexly it perplexes me

My only hope rest in the one we call The Almighty

It’s complicated

In case you were wondering,

This poem isn’t a fairy tale

It doesn’t have a magical ending

It really doesn’t have an ending at all

And the reason for that is because I’m still living

Still breathing

Still walking

Still talking

Still loving

Still caring

Still singing

Leaving fear going for the daring

But it’s complicated! My God it’s complicated!

No doubt those physical aches and pains were stress related

BUT I’M STILL HERE.