Its hard

to wake up

to fall asleep

to feel pain

to feel love

to have control

over thoughts

the mind floats away from the body

and i feel left

on an

isolated mountain range

and i want to spend

eternity

eternity breathing

closing my eyes

feeling connected

hearing nothing but myself

inhaling

exhaling

to leave behind memories

feeling nothing

is different

than feeling numb

numbness is knowing that feelings

are inaccessible

to feel nothing

is to have nothing to feel

the absence of inexistence

so to speak

Or maybe dont