It's Just Me

I tend to wonder what it means to have all these emotions swarming inside my mind.

I tend to ask my self if others feel this way too?

I tend to question everything I feel.

I tend to wonder…

Is it just me?

I am overwhelmed with anxiety,

My mind is overflowing with unrealistic doubts.

My palms are sweaty,

my heart is pounding outside of my chest

my senses are on edge

and then i ask…

Why me?

I am enraged with anger,

Anything or anyone that approaches me experiences my displeasure.

I pass it on with my very touch.

My eyes burn red with aggression.

I scowl at the sight of joy

And focus on only the negatives that seem to appear.

and then i ask

Why me?

I am drowning in sorrow.

I search for fresh air but all i find is myself gasping for every last breath

Drops of emotion filled tears trickle down my checks.

I want to hide.

I want to ignore everything else in the world.

I want to be alone.

And I would give anything to just escape this unbearable feeling.

and then i ask…

Why me?

I am overjoyed.

Happiness fills my entire body.

A smile is drawn across my face and refuses to be erased.

fireworks explode in my mind 

and my joy is a chain reaction

and then i ask…

Why me?

I look around,

and see

Some with grins 

Some with angered eyes.

Some have smiles from ear to ear

While others are clenching their fists with fear.

I see the sadness written on their faces.

and then i realize

could it be…

That It's not just me.