It's Not Easy

Childhood is not not easyWhen you want to be with the big kids.At a young age excluded because you the baby.Me yelling I want to play too.Being considered the bad kid.Im forced to get into things I shouldn't.Childhood is not easy when you grow upWith everyone's topic is my weight.Frim chunky to fat and everything is about that.Passing me the plateIm a human garbage dispole.Childhood is not easy when you get preached upon because im not doing as you say.Childhood is not easy when bulling doesn't matterYour mother is dog tired from a 12 hour shift.Yoy making cereal for her at 2 a.m.Removing her shoes of her swollen feetChildhood is not easy your sister shunning youIt's all about her boyfriend...Having to swear not to tell.You would think childhood would be easyOnce the weifht is lost .But you are mistaken those demons never leave.Childhood is not easy......Your father rather take care of other kids thenHis own.I didnt ask to be here.Never choose to be with you.You did this why should I have to pay.Suffer for your choose...I shouldnt...But I wake up every morningBaring your looks features..I feel ugly it makes me uglyI envy my brother looks luke my mother.Easy life he has not knowing his fatherI rather be in that place.Ready to be on my own,ready to be grown.Let me get away never wanted to stay.But wait childhood would be ovet I think......Pause thunk contemplate....I realize who cares because childhood was not easy in the first place.