It's not okay.

Its not okay

I can lie and say I’m fine, but in my mind I sometimes want to die. Its not okay.

 Its easy to tell a lie but its hard to tell the truth and apologize. Its not okay.

I have my days here I just want to cry and not try. Its not ok.

Why cant I just do right, by him. Its not okay.

I went to the elders, they are not good helpers. Its not okay.

My family see’s me one way I see me in another. Its not okay.

Its not okay, to not be okay.

I’m screaming I’m not okay. I’m tired of rhyming I’m going to tell u straight up. I want to hit something. I want to scream. I want to cry. I just want to die. But I cant because I got to live for my family I got to live for my friends I got to fight for my life. You are not getting me in that trap lucifer. Cause its ok to cry its ok to be sad but its not ok to keep it all inside. These people need me so imma try. God I’m going to try. I know I let you down. Im so sorry. I cant help it but why do you forgive me? WHY?