it's scary

i can’t even think about it
it hurts too much
i saw you once when the stars aligned
but now you can only live on in my mind

how can it be so
that you’ll have a life somewhere without me
would it be better if i didn’t know
about your beautiful existence

you already have forgotten me
but i’ll never forget you
if this was a movie
i’d already have you

did i just miss my destiny
or was the feeling not strong enough
should i have said something
and been all sweet

i really wanted to touch you
not sexually
but your eyes are really pretty
and your face is crafted so neat

i hope your future goes well
i will beg that mine does too
but it’s scary to think that you’re gone forever
and that i meant nothing to you

maybe i did catch your eye
even though that seems unlikely
nevertheless it doesn’t matter
because not everything is about me

you’ll never know who i am
or how i feel about you
you’ll forever be only a side character in my life
who lives on without me even though i don’t want you to

please don’t forget
how beautiful you are
you have a way of changing the world
and making my soul less hard

you left a hole in my chest
and a rush in my brain
i hope no one ever hurts you
i can’t bear to think of you in pain

i hope you find someone to wipe away your tears
even though i wish it could be me
i can’t believe i met you
and how much it hurt to watch you leave

each step i took away
crumpled my heart until i couldn’t breathe
it felt like i broke the invisible string
each time i moved my feet