ive been to some dark

ive been to some dark places for a while now some im still stuck in so im so sorry for everything.... ive learned alot over these past few years only to find a war within myself and a dream i have been having and can never let go and i dont know how to fix it ive been stuck in this life feel like ive missed it trying to get rid of these thoughts there consistant im living life to fast next day you never know it might be my last my bodys not made to last things arent the same, everyday i get little more insane im feeling manic so i panic trying to grasp was reality i have left before i vanish so i panic panic for reason i cannot manage feel this world was built to be tarnished tears blood and sweat is splilled before i can pay my bills i feel like im constantly on drills marching.....Marching for something i cannot explain because im stuck here dying inside my own brain