Jesus

To the boy I fell in love with in my high school years You where my everything someone I fell for hard Someone I gave up half my life for I went threw hell to keep you by my side On and off for so many years I left good people to always go back to you You where always in my mind Every day to every second You consumed my entire life It was as if you were a drug I could not quit I tried and tried but couldn't get enough I was clean for 2 years till you showed up at my door And I fell once more But this time was different Over and over I told myself I was done But this time it was different It was as if you where giving me my heart back You did the same things over and over I knew what was coming I knew I was going to get hurt I did cry for 2 days after you left I wasn't going to go back to my old ways So I took time for me I was getting happy Then you texted ... One final meet to get my things back I went crazy for the rest of the day Shaking hands and feeling dizzy What would happen when I saw you again.. The time has come I went to see you I pulled up made sure there was a car between us You stepped out of the car .. I got out of mine you walked over I said hey thanks for my stuff You went straight to my car to put my things in my car I was confused I didn't expect you to go near me or my car I thought you would give me my things and leave But you held the door open You wanted to talk I kept my distance You kept coming close I didn't understand You left me You wanted nothing to do with me Why are you stalling? Let me go home You gave me a hug it was time to say goodbye You gave me a kiss... I hate how you can get away with anything I let you get away with anything You took my hand and went to your car It was a nice moment till you opened your mouth You said you wouldn't sleep with me because you didn't know where I had been I wanted to slap you But instead I cried I said I didn't sleep around I took time for me You didn't believe me I was so upset Your the one who kissed me Your the one who brought me to your car... I stepped out I went to my car told you to txt me if you needed me And you did we talked and met up on our spot We messed around but still no sex We talked more and agreed to just mess around No feelings not letting each other get attached You said you still cared about me And loved me But when you said that I didn't feel anything I smiled gave you a kiss and went home A few days had passed We finally had a chance to make love You came to my house and we had our fun We went on with our lives A week later I got off work late I asked if you were at your job You said yes I went to visit you I asked for my free coffee And I stayed to talked We finally had a serious conversation And I felt free I gave you a kiss Got my coffee And told you if I had ever met someone I would let you know I want to keep our fun going no strings But I wasn't going to keep running back I finally was free from your spell My heart was back in my hands You no longer had it Seven years And I'm finally free Jesus the man I feel for so hard Thank you for everything The ups and downs I finally understand what I want in life Jesus I love and always will love you The last thing I will say is your name Jesus...