Journal vs. Him

Live without?

I can't live without him,

it or them.

You make me choose.

Alone I have always been,

but with him I'm happy.

I would have choosen the journal,

but now the answer is him.

To keep me company, 

and take the pain away.

On an island, deserted.

Only one thing I can have with me,

making the thing a person,

and making the person him.

I choose him.

You make me choose.

I cannot live without them, it,

or him.

Live without?