The Journey after lifE!

Reminiscing on the journey sofar... Looking back at all the struggles, pain, love and passion' Sometimes, it's good, mostimes it's bad! In all of those times' I could only believe and keep the hope alive' I could only think about all of Jah's promises about the future! If only I could keep to all his words& have' faith; only then; can I be saved. But most times I get so drowned by the trials of life and the pains that comes with it! How can I really keep to all the commandments, without being distracted. How can I truly believe in the greater source, amidst all the insecurities and uncertainties? Most times I wonder what the 'Journey after lifE' really looks like? Do I get to experience more pains, chaos and drama? Am I gon' be so judged like I never did any good in this lifetime? Will all my good be erased just cz' of one wrong deed? Is the universe so cruel? Sometimes, I ask myself, what's life really about? if I get to suffer this much agony on earth and then still continue in the other realm. What's the purpose of creation? Is it like a squid game? Where every one is just all about survival? I just wonder. What's the Journey after lifE' all about? I'm yet to get an answer. ??.