Journey of Faith

Seasons they come and go.

It could be sunny or there could be snow.

It’s promised that seasons change.

Some might last longer and to me that is strange.

For now I’m in the season of death.

But I begin the day with a deep breath.

My worlds in between seasons.

It’s changing for all the good reasons.

It’s all because I asked to go to church.

I explored churches and finished my first search.

I found my first church Christ Community.

With the people and god there, there was unity.

 

Years ago, I attended church. I was a tiny tot.

When my brain was like a tiny knot.

Few years later I went to kids connection.

I didn’t think that was the right direction.

I then asked to go to “big church”.

I was too young to understand, so I did my research .

I realized that if you go to church, you’ll learn how much Jesus loves you.

But my papa told me there were free donuts too.

 

My family stopped going.

That’s when my faith stopped growing.

As time went on, life got hard.

I became emotionally scarred.

I seeked attention because I was sad.

All because I lost my dad.

I prayed for a friend on the hardest night.

One came that was a very bright light.

Her name was Ms. Templeman.

She taught me god was a gentleman.

I slowly became closer to him.

But unfortunately she fell off the limb.

 

I started getting an idea of who God was in my head.

But because of one struggle to me he was dead.

But God still managed to see the good in me.

He took me places so I could see.

God brought me into a Christian group.

Younglife, we were one big troop.

 

The closer I got to God.

It didn’t seem too odd.

I finally put a bible on the shelf.

But it only read itself.

I never prayed for the good, only the bad.

Which was sad.

 

Last year on September 5th,

I knew God was no myth.

That day my papa passed away.

And our lives turned very gray.

My family grew apart.

But I was lucky to find god in my heart. 

 

I then returned to church on December 8th.

That’s when I regained my faith.

On that day, Pastor Alan gave a sermon on giving. and how god is in us —living.

 

My next service was January 12th.

That’s where I learned love is a provider of health.

Pastor KJ then mentioned love never fails.

And the gospel is consisted of many true tales.

And meaningful deep details.

He stated, the blind see but those who see are often blind.

I really need to keep that in mind.

On February 3rd Alan taught the meaning of blessing.

We’ve misused this word which is depressing. 

 

On February 9th Alan asked, do you trust God?

Only a select few gave a solid nod.

We learned the word holy means whole. 

And God has a life-changing end goal.

I can’t afford to think things that God doesn’t think of me.

So loving myself is key.

And if I’m struggling get down on my knees.

 

February 18th, I learned that salvation is a gift.

If I realize that my life will dramatically shift.

We are God’s handiwork.

We are a beautiful piece of artwork. 

We are handmade.

Did you thank God for that when you last prayed?

 

February 21st, I started a bible study.

That’s when God became a bigger buddy.

I started with the series “Life Inspired.”

Basically teaching God’s love doesn’t expire.

There are three ways to living an inspired life, one is to engage.

God has a hold of your story so turn the page.

Don’t put the story back on the bookcase. 

Because the second way is to embrace.

Go at God’s pace.

The third is experience, there are good and bad things you’ll face, just have grace. 

We were taught the word repentance. 

To repent to God I thought would be a hard sentence.

We need to own our sin. 

This is where it all begins.

Why are people so negative?

It seems consecutive. 

Pastors don’t get many comments on how people’s relationship with God is cheerful.

But how their religion is distant.. now that’s an earful.

Instead of looking alive how do we become alive?

That’s where most people don’t thrive.

“To live by faith is to live in the father’s embrace.”

Now I know that this is the right place.

 

February 23rd, KJ taught that death doesn’t get the last word.

When someone dies your relationship with him might get blurred.

But grace is God.

He knows we are all flawed.

Grace is the ocean… no beginning, no end.

So make a relationship with God an ongoing trend.

It would be so nice seeing his word extend.

With a relationship with God there’s three prepositions.

In him, through him, and with him. These are our missions.

 

February 24th, in a bible study that KJ taught.

It brought deep thought.

He said the gospel should challenge us.

Which when they’re hard, me and Pastor Nate usually discuss.

God heals the unhealable. 

Which is unbelievable. 

Money doesn’t lead us to enjoyments. 

It actually leads us to our opponent.

God is our future. 

So don’t let the devil be an intruder.

 

March 2nd, Alan taught us the word seal.

It means he has ownership of us. Isn’t that unreal?

To walk away from Jesus is so easy to do.

Does him dying on the cross mean nothing to you?

The Holy Spirit is our down payment.

So don’t store it in the basement. Use it.

God's love is like a river.

He’s always a forgiver.

Each and everyday he wants you to get deeper. 

But it does go steeper.

If you don’t know how to go deeper , talk to your preacher.

 

April 13th, Alan brought something to my attention. 

And it needed to be mentioned.

We are more self-absorbed than Christ-absorbed.

I think his word tends to get ignored.

When we are self-absorbed there’s no love.

That’s why we need to look above.

We need to turn good things into godly things.

That’s when God’s heart grows wings. 

 

The same day it was my first day serving at the café.

I then knew I was on the right pathway.

I gained friendships everyday.

And they all started with them wanting to pray. 

 

April 24th, I learned the search for significance.

Each step has a great importance.

First, was our creation.

We have a wonderful foundation.

Second, is relationship.

So pull the sail on the ship.

This step you cannot skip.

Third, is the fall.

You have to have trust so tear down that wall.

Fourth, is redemption which he died for his people.

Because of that he gave us a building with a steeple.

Fifth, is restoration.

So now will you take his word into consideration?

Last, is engaging in mission.

His love for us is no competition.

 

May 4th, Pastor Alan quoted “who you believe you are determines what you do.”

That is so true.

But who knew?

Our identity comes from God the father.

He is our author.

God gave us our imagination.

So imagine you and God having a conversation.

 

May 6th, I had something on my heart.

That’s when my full faith took a start.

It was all because of one sermon.

My faith became determined.

The sermon was called “Why Church?”

I learned to realize God is the father and for the love of my earthly dad I can finally stop my search.

Alan said if you don’t go to church life will still be going.

But I missed so much already without knowing.

I was inspired to write a letter.

Which basically said how my life with this church is better.

 

You’re probably wondering if this poem will end.

But I really want to make Jesus a never ending trend.

The relationship with Jesus is a big journey I’m on.

This relationship isn’t just bought on Amazon.

You need to value his love.

His love is as tight as a glove.

 

May 18th, I learned how to experience hope.

There are four steps which is an easy slope.

First, look up. He can do way more than we ask.

Nothing to him is a hard task.

Second, look within.

These are where the answers have been.

Third, look around.

A church family is found.

Last, look ahead.

Your future is alive not dead.

If god is your partner dream the unreachable.

Because with God it becomes reachable.

 

May 25th, Pastor Mariana taught worthy of your calling.

Think less of you and more of others as your faith doesn’t start falling.

Your experience with faith isn’t a checklist.

That shouldn’t even exist!

There are four steps to living worthy.

To others you’ll become trustworthy.

First, be humble.

That way your faith won’t crumble.

Second, be patient.

How will you benefit by being impatient?

Third, be gentle.

Now that’s all mental.

Last, love more.

This shouldn’t be a chore.

 

June 1st, I met an idol.

Because of him I read and understand the Bible.

His name is Pastor Nate.

He is so great.

All the sermons he gives I always relate.

Most sermons are hard to hear.

I guess that’s why I’m here.

He helps me understand sermons.

And he’s so determined.

Nate sent me a video of him teaching about Ruth.

It was the untold truth.

This sermon hit me really hard.

Only because of my past scars.

He told me not to let my past get the final word on my future.

With Nate in my life it’s a confidence booster.

 

June 15th, Alan taught that words speak life or death.

So before you speak think and take a deep breath.

You have 16,000 words you speak in a day.

So choose the right ones to say.

 

June 29th, I learned that anger is a God given feeling.

Even though it feels unappealing.

You shouldn’t be stewing.

Nor should you be spewing.

Here are three formations.

So when you get angry have these expectations.

First, acknowledge why you are mad.

Is it good or is it bad?

Second, analyze.

Or are you just telling yourself lies?

Last, apply the gospel.

Then you won’t feel as awful.

 

July 2nd, I decided to get more involved.

My love for serving will never dissolve.

I got in touch with Mr. Fanning.

This is what God has been planning.

He gave me a part being a section host.

I think I love this one the most.

 

July 6th, Pastor KJ stated love is patient, love is kind.

This word ‘love’ seems undefined.

Love is humble.

If not it will crumble.

Love always hopes and protects.

Therefore love respects.

So what’s the definition of love?

Love is the God above.

 

July 14th,  I was super nervous.

This was my mom's first service.

I became very self-centered.

I wanted Nate, Alan, and the worship team to all be there when I entered.

But I overheard they weren’t going to be there.

So I got really upset instead of saying a prayer.

I then knew God did it for a reason.

And that this day was a temporary season.

It turned out perfect.

Now I hope my mom knows why I like to come.

And I hope she likes the person I’ve become.

I’m so relieved that the challenges I faced with death I’ve now overcome.

This day Stetson taught we are supposed to bring God to where he is not seen and make him visible.

Because some think he’s invisible.

Don’t use God as a flashlight because behind it’s dark.

Be a lantern because in every direction it sparks.

Jesus wants you to wake up.

As your faith can build up.

 

I’ve learned that a church is a family in mission.

These amazing people I need to mention.

 

Pastor Alan where do I even start?

He always seems to have a wise and amazing sermon on his heart.

Pastor Nate is such an inspiring and dedicated father.

At least I had a mother because my dad hasn’t  even bothered.

Talented Rocky has a spiritual gift.

When he sings my heart shifts.

Pastor KJ he inspires people on how he’s confident.

For me having confidence is hard.. it’s like climbing a monument.

Pastor Stetson he’s so funny and inspiring.

But when he preaches I can’t stop crying.

Lenny brings tears to my eyes when we worship and when all our hands lift.

When she sings the atmosphere just shifts.

Scott Thompson at the café he works so hard.

But when you mess up he will never pull the final card.

Mariana has a heart of gold.

Her words help my faith remold.

Shane Fanning is so patient and dedicated.

His kindness and hard work needs to be celebrated.

 

Well I guess this poem has come to an end.

I’m happy to say God is my permanent best friend.

I now know part of the reason why my papa passed away.

It’s as my faith would grow stronger each and every day.

It breaks my heart people don’t support my beliefs.

But to me it’s a big relief.

I don’t know where I’d be without Christ Community.

I definitely found so many opportunities.

I’m so scared to finish senior year.

Because most likely I won’t be going to college here.

I don’t want to find another church.

I was hoping I was done with my search.

This world is such a cruel place, but the people here they’re kind and sincere.

This is where my family is..

I belong..

HERE 

 

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