the journey of pain

I had him but lost him,

my bestfriend, my boyfriend

our journey together but,

i have no idea what we are now.

Are we lovers or friends?

Are we enemies or is it just pretend?

I ruined our friendship now i have no one, 

to talk to or cry on.

What did i do i risked it all like a gambler at a casino spinning the knob.

Let me know if you change your mind about me,

Because i promise ill be here standing or on my knees.

Id kill to be with you or even around you.

Something about you makes me want to come after you.

Tell me this do you feel the same or am i losing in this cruel love game?