Judgments

don't date girls. 

don't like boys. 

make up your mind.

I love you, not the gay you. 

it's a phrase. 

all i need is for you are to love me.

I CANT love you, daughter 

I CANT accept you, daughter 

your not apart of this family, daughter

you making this family look bad, daughter

your not happy. 

it's good to pretend.

don't cry.

cry a little. 

hide your face.

show your face.

smile a little, the world isn't that bad

why were you smiling so hard?

what about kids? or maybe not or maybe so

adopting? sperm donor? surrogate? 

don't hug her.

jesus won't accept you, daughter 

go to hell

YOU ARE going to hell, daughter 

all i need is for you to accept me

it's your life so do whatever makes you happy? 

what is happy? are you happy? 

I can't do this. you can't do this. 

what's love? who can you love? where are the rules of love? 

crying doesn't help.

screaming doesn't either

maybe a diary?

write it out. 

cut.

die.

all i need is for you to listen.

moms and daughters are suppose to have a good bond.

sisters are suppose to be close 

just accept. be understanding. it's not hard. 

you are not the same little girl 

you grew up

you too grown

do you have a boyfriend yet? 

are you having sex? how do you have sex? 

your too young to understand

what is there to understand? 

are you gay? are you bisexual? are you straight? 

no your bicurious daughter. 

"i will not have this s*** daughter" 

want me to regret bringing you in this world daughter?

all i need is my girlfriend.

don't ever love another woman. 

why are your past so baggy?

get a smaller size.

why don't you wear dresses?

why not lipstick? 

it's too girly for you?

where's your lil boyfriend? 

*girlfriend

hush child. you don't know what you talking about

what's his name?

her name is Diamond, she's my girl..

shut up.

but i love her.

all i need is my significant other.

you dont know what love is

but i love her. all i need is her

i cannot. i will not. accept you. this isn't who I birthed. 

don't hang around your niece

your a terrible influence 

how could you hurt me? 

how could you disobey me? 

how could you destroy this family?

how could you force me to not claim you?

how could you?

how could i hate you? you ruin everything. 

why couldn't you just make mommy happy? 

i can't be with you. 

my family hates us. 

my family hates me.

i love you.

all i need is you.

i cannot love you. 

i cannot love that.

i will not accept that.

i'm very disappointed 

your too stubborn.

you have trust issues.

every one do

why not talk?

no one will care to listen.

why push the good people away & keep the bad?

your family are the good people but are they really the good people if they treat you so bad

what am I doing here?

when will you love me?

will I ever make you happy again? 

mom? mommy? First Lady?

can you forgive me?

your so young.

you are so dumb. 

you are so damn stupid.

how could you?

your not perfect

you are perfect for me

do you hear me young lady?

what are you crying for?

how did I hurt you? you hurt me.

I cannot believe you jamilya.

you make me sick

I would have rather been buried than see this

you are ridiculous 

you are going to live with your dad

I don't even like my dad

I barley even know my dad

why?

"but mom"

but nothing..

"but mom even after this poem you still will never understand how much you hurt me"

all i need is her tender love and care.