July
Your words fell like grace and warmth
They rolled down my shoulders like the water in the shower
I could breathe when they consumed me
I was safe as they drowned me
I wanted to live inside them
They filled my empty places
Your soul met mine and we were different
You sat with me in hell
And drew funny faces on my demons
And that hot place began to feel like home
And I smiled when you laughed
And I felt less afraid
If you had been here
I would have kissed you until the sun came up
And swallowed all the darkness
And I would have held you tight until the last breath escaped my lungs
But you weren't here and my hands couldn't hold
It's not your fault
It's mine
For letting myself fall in love with the other side of the world
June was rain and puddles and splashing
And angels that looked like you danced with me when waterfalls fell
They kissed my forehead and told me to never forget to dream
But July
Made you feel closer to me and I could walk on the sky
Hanging upside down and standing on the planets
With my fingers in the clouds
My toes in the stars
And now I'm just laying on my bed
Facing the wrong way
And everything is backwards and lost
You
Me
And everything
June swept me up
July kissed my wounds
And in August
Everything broke
One by one
They left
And
One by one
Everything
Shattered