just close enough

dear, you know exactly who you are 

call me crazy for still thinking about it after years 

something about that night or that kiss 

has had me comparing everything to you 

you are nothing special or unseen 

yet the way that i have to work so hard to earn a piece of your 

love and affection 

that this in some way defines the i love you 

yet you are nothing unique in the way that there shouldn't be

a reason that i can't find better

for sake that we didn't even date; it wasn't even a relationship 

you told me that 'if circumstances were different we would be together'

as though you are so naive to think that i would give so much of my life to you

when i had nothing left 

you leave me hanging oh so close

but not close enough as if one day i expect

you to wake up with this feeling in your bones saying

'oh my god it is her! it has always been her'

because i have learned that if you are constantly waiting for this 

kind of realization 

you are going to be waiting a

very 

long 

time