Just A Dream

(poems Home from a normal day the unexpected still at wait looking out at every way feeling the air of hate. A empty house of torter holding secrets of unending pain the icy chill of winter just adds to the lasting vain. the noise of my fathers yell the anger in his eyes a secret i will now tell of our final goodbyes From the fear i decide to run into the hope of darkness his hands tight around a gun in my room of hopelessness under the bed i try to hide and i hear the door close i see the gun by his side against his torn apart clothes looking around our eyes meet then the anger returns his brother just behind his feet as the fury burns the threat of the barrel pointing toward my head praying to an angel that we both end up dead. the final decision had to come of who will pull the trigger the feeling of being done the shots go off, go figue the pain seen eye to eye the thought of what id done knowing now is goodbye wishing it hadnt come guilt comes rushing in and i start to cry and the shots begin again so i will slowly die as the darkness appears i think of my mom i say 'i love you' with tears but now its said and done.