I always let myself down Always stop myself from getting what I want or what I need Maybe it's a lack of self-confidence There is always doubt in the back of my mind about what I am capable of Don’t know where it comes from, it’s been by my side for a while now. It’s a constant uphill battle within myself, shutting the little voice inside. Wish there was a cure for it, something to smack reality into my face This is when I write I let out frustration, confusion, anger, just about any emotion there is. It’s what keeps me sane; from yelling at other people I’m really not violent, nor do I ever think I will become but I do take precautions ‘cause ‘never say never’, right? Put the pen to paper and release my feelings, flush it down and Tears no more. Ahh the smiles back on my face. Scattered thoughts are now clear. I can trust another person again, only to let them disappoint me again. New day so it’s okay. Plus it’s only human nature, gotta let it slide. Sometimes people can surprise you though and go out of their way to be good We’ll see, leave this sense of hope for each day. ‘Cause why think of the negatives, focus on the bad. I believe there’s a plan – a higher power. In God I trust. I’ve already promised myself to commit to this philosophy So far so good, but like I said we’ll see.