Just a really bad day

Failing a test

guilty feeling in my chest 

thoughtless thinking

how can I improve ?

I try giving my all 

every sweat and breath

thousands times at night 

never blinking an eye

Only working with a drink

coffee being my  source 

my way of functioning 

but to top the cherry of these stressful days

I endour the pain within the house

not a home, nor a safe place 

The house is a nightmare 

once filled with the warm of the rays of the sun 

now darken by the wooden board on the windows

Once filled with laughter

only to become a crying room

the smiling girl 

has lost her smile