Kennedy

if i had known

the one thing i needed

was coming in a day

i wouldn't have managled my body apart

tearing at my flesh, my heart, my veins

breaking down my spirits, my hope

instead

i would have taken a walk 

and enjoyed the autumn breeze

and taken a breath

if i had known

the one thing i needed

would light up a world i didn't know existed

i wouldn't have let people trample me

dim my inner light

shove me down

i would have stood my ground

if i had known

the one thing i needed 

would give me a reason to live

i wouldn't have hidden my mother from my friends

embarrassed by her frame

a frame that i didn't know

held the most important thing to ever walk this Earth

Kennedy

my love

i never knew how much i needed you

until your small hand touched my skin

your cry lit up my life

my heart grew that day

and had i known you were coming 

that it would be you

and not someone else

i could have changed a lot of things

i could have waited to ask for help 

i could have waited to love myself

i could have waited to accept the truths around me

i could have waited for you to experience

this new world

that opened up around me

but had i changed a single thing

had i made a single dent in the time-space continuum

i may not have been led

the one place i needed to be.

i may not have received

the one thing i needed.

you