Kill

I kill myself for you 
I make you happy
I give you everything, anything you ask for
While I get nothing in return 
You cuss at me so I cuss back
You get mad when i hit you with facts then you come at me with irrelevant shit 
We argue but we both walk away from it
I keep all this in so I won't cause a bigger problem
You smile while I frown 
You hurt me and I pretend to be fine
I support you
I make you feel better
I check up on you
While I wait for your help
You asked if I'm fine I respond with a smile pretending to be happy
Where were you when I needed you the most?
I kill myself to make you happy 
I do all this for you 
Why can't you do the same?
G eazy once said "what the fuck is love without pain or suffer" but why am I the only one suffering and in pain
Is that what you call love?