Killer

They said,

"You can talk to him"

They said,

"He's not a killer"

They said,

"You can trust him"

But I can't do either 

I took their word

I threw out my own judgement 

I threw out self doubt 

I lost myself

In your smiles

Your witty words

And side remarks

But truth be told 

I now know

What they said

Was a lie 

I can't talk to you 

I can't trust you 

In fact 

I don't even think I know you 

You are a killer 

You killed my spirit 

You broke my heart 

Took me away from the light and threw me in the dark

But it's okay

I want to say 

I can't even feel it

Why do I even bother 

Writing what I want to say?

You can't hear me words

No matter what form they take 

But then again, you've never heard anything I've had to say