To know who I am

I wish my mind could scramble for the words I am looking for

to tell you who I am

my struggles

my memories

but instead they are all jumbled and locked in my head

I wish my mind could reason with myself

to make a decision

to know who I am

but instead I am searching for my purpose

I wish my mind could fathom the very thought of being free

of being an adult

of wondering who I will be

but instead I am searching for my destiny

I wish my mind could calculate the number of times I wanted to give up

to throw my hard work away

to forget my aspirations

but instead I push forward

I wish my mind could erase the irrelevant mistakes I’ve made

the ones that taught me nothing

the ones that sacrificed my hard work

but instead they replay like a movie in my head

I wish my mind could modulate with my lips to say how I feel

But instead I am sitting here twiddling with the words in my head