With Knowledge Increases Sorrow

Sometimes I wish I could just erase who I AM

Like butterfly effect yet not b-cuz of sorrow I caused but b-cuz of pain

To my savior and to His body

To myself for the stance I take

As to this day I am still smoking and if I had a toke I would be toking

Though I AM the righteousness of God

I still sin

If not on the outside

Then deep within

Just being honest my friend

I have pushed so many people away

And the medications I take, yo, they label me insane

What good is a beautiful mind

If I cannot find or see the beauty developing inside of me

So bump rap I'm on to poetry

Or am I lyrically trappin you for you to see

So that I can get a verbal affirmation from you to me

When no-one but God knows what we have been through

I wish I could have a friend

Like David to Johnathen

Or a wife for life that could affirm me

And truly see what the Holy Ghost sees

But that is impossible as how can it be

That a friend or a wife could see beyond infinity

As God, even Jesus, is beyond that as He is greater than Himself

Yo, I cannot even put myself on the shelf

As even when I sleep I dream

Are any of you feelin me?

As with knowledge increases sorrow

But how do you shut off the knowledge you WILL gain tomorrow

You C there I AM again

WILL C what tomorrow WILL B

Maybe it WILL Bring, Will A

Screw it I WILL B content with WILL-I-AM today.