Lay me down

i dont have you anymore i feel so alone i keep hearing alarms screaming it just seems so dark My eyes won't stop crying this pain won't stop coming i just want to sleep and not wake up i want the cuts to get deeper the blood to stop flowing the air to just stop i was a mistake and now i know the truth i wish you had the faith in me but i shouldnt question why not because from you own words i haven't given a lot you speak it in anger and that's what hurts the most when the burriel comes you'll be the first to toast part of me says you're just mad part of me says its just about time lastly it just says you never were meant to live it has been said the world has came the words been spread this how i was to become dead my bed has been made the scars are open your words feel like lemons and salt poured inside i tried to hold on but i lost all my pride just step on my heart it'll be more easier cover my mouth because thats what you want cover my eyes for you wont have to look at me civer my ears i dont want to hear it please when i die please pretendyou'll care please when you tell me you love me act like you mean it when you hug me over my casket make sure thats what you feel dont do it for show because all around the people will know when you say you're sorry just know you killed me why couldnt you just let me be didnt couldnt you just see the real me know that i tried know that i cried know that i was alone know that how i messed up and how i wasnt suppose to live and you know that dont you know i cry in my sleep i beg for you to look my way i could barely make it through the day dont you know im so scared to close my eyes that i shake in my sleep sometimes i just cant sleep i stay awake thinking just if i could only hoping one day you would be in your arms like when i was little and you look at me say everything will be okay but never the words you dare to say when you find me dead dont worry about a funeral dont waste your money dont act like youll care dont fake your tears just burn me down and flush my ashes havent done anything so i never mattered please know that i just wanted you to love me like you did im sorry i dissapointed you just lay me down and know i loved you i did.