Laying in the dark

In the dark I lie awake 

hoping , praying for our sake

I told you all that I felt 

And all I got was a painful welp 

I felt my heart leave my chest 

Never for me to find love's  rest 

All I needed was some time 

To help me rearrange my mind 

How does one fight a war

when ones ememy hides in the mind's own doors

Every memory a battle front 

A battle won and a War  lost 

All these emotions cursing me 

I held  them in not to be free

Not to lose my porcelain face 

Never one to lose my grace 

To hide this fire kills my faith 

In the dark I erase 

Asking God  why, what have I done 

This was my darkest hour 

All because meomories had last gone sour 

Still I lie here in the dark 

Hoping, praying for the spark.