Nothing is ever out of place
Hair is piled neatly on her head, Clothes is fitted immaculately on her body
Her smile is wide, showing a nice row of pearly teeth
Her eyes full of laughter on the outside
Everyone looks at her in envy. A beautiful and intelligent young women walks the street with her head held high.
Her eyes never wander farther than she can see
Her eyes never glaze down at the concrete. Confidence bubbling over
One step at a time into her home
"Where were you"
"who were you with"
"you nasty whore"
"you are a worthless whore"
"Are you going to cry, you are aren't you"
"your such a child"
"you are the biggest disgrace to ever marked this earth"
Accusations, Insults thrown at her. Each one hit harder than the other.
Drops of tear begging to fall, adding more fire to the flame.
A dark shadow befalls the girl
The pins that held up her hair let loose a wild black mass
She hazardly changes into sweats. A shirt 2 size big, and a pair of pants that wears her
A benevolent personality turns into a ugly monster
Takes away her beauty, her intelligence her Confidence.
She wipes the tears and begin to start a battle.
Her Innocence , Nativity stolen years before her time. Words beyond her years starts poring out her mouth. Tears starts raining down her face.
Her heart breaks into millions of piece. A headache starts to form.
"who the f*** do you think you are"
"All your friends are whores"
" I have no friends"
"you think anyone cares for you"
"You are nothing without me"
"I made you, I brought you into this earth"
There is no winning. She lets her head fall.
Its to much. The feeling of self loathing. Self hatred befalls her.
Everything enclosed around her.
Dark thoughts sneak there way into her mind
I can never win
I can never win
I don't want this
I need to escape
Where will I go
Who will be my savior.
I need to save myself
I glimpse left, a glimpse right.
A look back, a look forward.
She enters her room. She rushes to her room. Slams her door. The duty remarks follows her.
They paste themselves onto her skin. They glued themselves into her head.
Leave get out. Yet silently they urge her on.
Lifts her mattress and under her bed lays something sharp