Leaving So Soon?

Under the t-shirts and hoodies and pea coats

Behind the scowling face

Curled into the fetal position

To crack, I’m a tough case

I’m honestly not trying to be unfriendly

Making enemies is not the goal

This is just my personality

Apathy, that’s how I roll

Scrawling out notes in class

Doing homework sprawled on the floor

Still a whole ‘nother year of high school

As a life, what’s not to abhor?

Yeah, I guess I have friends

Well, people I usually can stand

But what do I really have in common with them?

Not even classes, drama, or band…

I really can’t wait until college

Every thought cycles to escaping this place

I want to leave my family and life here

Get out of the slow-lane, speed up the pace

The person I talk to most is myself

And even that’s a great bore

I’ve honestly tried to be tolerant

But the bitterness runs to my core

It’s not that I’m unwilling to like people

Though the commitment issues probably hurt some

It’s just that I haven’t met the right person

That, and peoples’ interests are dumb

So now I am chronically lonely

And college might be a fresh start

A time to earn a new nickname

And play a less hostile part

For now, I'm trapped in Plath's bell jar

A butterfly beating her wings

Wanting nothing more than to escape 

And see what the future brings